friendships gone bad

i think it is always sad when friendships go bad.

we all know there are a lot of reasons why friends fall apart but i think the saddest reason would be one without any significant start or end.

i mean, right now, i have friendships that dont seem to be friendships anymore. i dont know where our falling apart started and that is probably the most hurtful part of it. i think that this type of falling apart is the most unfortunate.

it makes me crazy thinking about it, becuae we didnt fight over something, nor did we have a difference on opinion. we just drifted apart. i can never find a reason why we did, but we did.

and in this world where we a re guided by logic and rationality, it drives one off the wall to not know where things start and why they do..


it makes me realize: maybe our friendship never really started...it only suffere an end..

do you understand what im getting at?

i think, we were just fooling ourselves that we were friends, we were caught up in all the excitement of meeting someone so different from ourselves and the idea wa novel

i find it hard to put into words what i mean

and for once, zhaun ortega is at a loss for words.

i cannot even properly explain what i feel..
i feel uncomfortable towards that person. when im in a crowd, i still feel lonely. although i try to pretend to be happy, sometimes i just over think this.

and the hardest part is that we used to be such big parts of each other's world and now we act like we dont even exist in it.

its a sad day indeed...


i think the person has just hurt me too much, it would be stupid of me to make friends with that person again.

the persdon hurt me because that person was allowed to. i allowed for it to happen

i expected a lot from that person.
no

scrap that..

i only expected friendship

and ours never felt like one

yet, as i am writing this..i feel the urge to makes ammends with that person..becuase...

i dont know....

i just want to


bye sad bitches
:-(