wishing to be deeper

well, i have wished to write about "the deeper" parts of life and not about these somewhat "shallow" things i usually wallow in.but i havent been able to do that.

either i have lost all capacities to feel genuine human emotion, or i just shiver at the thiought of somebody somewhere in the world reading about my thoughts and having the liberty to judge how i feel, how i act, how i think.


i mean, my life is pretty cool. and there's nothing wrong with that. i woul not want to present myself as a deep, thoughtful, pensive person because i am not. i am happy, i am street smart, i am a say-anything-i-want type of guy.

i mean..i am impulsive. i dont go into deep thought with every action i make and every decision i ..err...decide on (?)

thats just not me..
and in all honesty..i am dead tired of reading blogs tahta sk for sdympathy. i am tired of opening blogs that just leave me feeling sad.

i want my blog to be shallow! and i am sure that is what it will be!

and you know what?
i am smart enough to realize that.
i am smart enough not to conform with norms. i am smart enough not to write about emotions or whatever just to get readers interested. i am smart enough to be myself and what i want to write, not because i need to , but because i really really want to..

and..if you really thinmk about it, these blogs that offer literary pieces and what not..they just seek approval.they seek approval from anyone who is willing to read their stupid blogs filled with metaphors and shit.


and i DO NOT need that approval. i know who i am. i decide for myself..
and when it all comes down to dust: i am a great person, and i realize that you too, my dear readers, are great. you are not afraid to indulge in stupid blabber and the more fun things in life..
and i hope you keep reading this blog, not because i need your approval., but becaue (let's be all honest here) i need you to view it for money. i want some..and this is pretty "easy" .

and remember what i said about real partyphiles? minimum efforts=maximum results..

yeah
go and think about that..but not too much..you might end up like some of those emotional retards who make blogs to show how sad and pitiful they are...


bye bitches!